4.24.02

Apathy n.
1. Lack of interest or concern, especially regarding matters of general importance or appeal; indifference.
2. Lack of emotion or feeling; impassiveness.
3. Space Monkey X

If I cared any less about anything this week, I’d be dead.

My job sucks.

My bank account sucks.

My car really sucks ($402.50 on repairs/parts over the last three days).

Catholic priests suck.

The Jews suck.

The Palestinians suck.

The Americans suck.

My diet sucks. (Hit a brick damn wall over the last few weeks as far as weight loss goes)

Did I mention my car sucks?

I think this is what doctor’s refer to as “burn out”. I’ve been going hardcore since mid-December on my diet/work out, writing, class, traveling (Illinois, New Orleans), meeting my birth parents, just non-fucking stop and I think this week it all hit me and I’m ready for a break. Dammit. Why can’t you plan your vacations for when you think you’re going to burn out? I would have killed to have this week off.

Actually, I take that back, this would have been the worst week EVER for me to take off. My car’s been screwing up again (water pump crapped out on me after I got home from Illinois) and that would have put a major dent in my “semi-vacation” plans. Plus, maybe it’s not such a good idea to take off work while you’re at a low point. I for one have NEVER come back from a vacation refreshed and ready to get back to work. I’m one of those people who, when he goes on vacation, never wants to come back because he knows he’s just going back to his shitty life instead of hanging out on Bourbon Street drinking margaritas out of a novelty plastic cup shaped like the naked body of a woman.

Ok, so enough of the negativity (yeah…right). Look up above. See anything different? Yeah, I took out “SMX Store” and replaced it with “Movie Journal”. What’s this all about? Well, for most of 2002, I’ve been keeping a movie journal, literally writing down every movie I watch and giving a brief opinion on it. I know, this sounds weird and, well, it is, but at the same time, you have no idea how much film has become a major part of my life over the last year or so. Basically, ever since getting on Netflix, I have become a film maniac. I read somewhere online that this one movie is worth checking out and I’m putting it on my Netflix list. What do I care if the movie actually sucks? I’m paying a flat $20 a month to rent as many movies as I can and don’t have to worry about making sure they’re back at Blockbuster by noon on Wednesday. I love it. And so, since film has become such a big part of my life, I figure I should probably share this aspect with you as well as the random ramblings you read here. As someone who is so freaky about film, I think a lot can be understood about a person by looking at the films they enjoy and, well, I don’t mind letting you see what films mean a lot to me. Besides, maybe you’ll find something in here that sounds like it’s worth checking out to you. So, click that link every once in a while and see what I’m up to.

Well, I think that’s it for now. I’m so “blah” to the world that, well, I just don’t really have much to say. I need to get some writing done anyway, so I’m gonna get outta here. See ya.

Space Monkey X