3.26.01

Hey guys! I’ve been wanting to write - in fact, I started writing Friday night, but one of my buddy’s was bored so we went out and had a pretty good time. It was nice because this is one of good friends, but yet we’re like George and Elaine on Seinfeld - we’re mainly friends because we have mutual friends. Not to say we don’t get along, but I can’t think of any other time where we had done something without the other guys. Anyway, it was good. We had fun, got out of the house, and had some pretty good, deep conversations about our lives thus far.

He got me thinking about my station in life. Pretty fuckin depressing if I do say so myself. He’s 22 and has pretty much known what he was going to be doing for the rest of his life since he was 13. I, on the other hand, am 26 and have virtually no clue what I’m going to be doing next year, let alone 10 years from now.

We both agreed that we were somewhat jealous of the other. I was jealous that he had his shit together; he was jealous that I hadn’t typecast myself into any job-type yet. However, I was not exactly envying his situation because, well, he’s going to be doing that job for the rest of his life; and he said he would be really leery about not having that structure in his life. So, I guess it’s all about what you’re comfortable with.

Am I perfectly happy not having any real job skills, yet somehow getting by? Not exactly; but at the same time, I’ve basically done a different job for the last 3 years in a row, so things don’t get too boring too quickly. However, I do think it’s about time I buckle down and figure out what I’m going to do from 8-5 for the rest of my miserable life. God, that realization sucks.

Like I said, I basically have no one set of job skills, which means I’m a "jack of all trades, but master of none". In today’s job market, that isn’t usually a good thing. I have quite a bit of computer support experience, but not in networking which is where the money is. I have quite a bit of website development experience, but no degree in fine arts, nor a mastery of the craft and it’s various technologies. I can communicate with the written word, but again, no degree or even any real experience in the field. I can draw better than most, but not well enough to be able to do anything with it. I have a great interest in filmmaking, but have very little knowledge of the filmmaking process and even if I did, don’t have the money nor the equipment to make anything happen. I truly am a "master of none".

So with this in mind, I’m thinking I need to get back to school and learn a job skill. As of today, I’m thinking I’d like that skill to be in writing. I feel like that is my strongest of my non-developed skills, so I should probably run with that one. It’s going to be an uphill battle to say the least because I still need to pay for an apartment, a car, credit cards, and other stupid shit I’ve collected over the years, but I’ll do what I have to. I’ve taken night courses before and, yes, they suck, but I really feel like I need to get somewhere in life rather than just spinning my wheels like I have been for the last six years.

Since I’m new to the area, I’m going to have to do some research to see what’s available. Thank God for the internet.

Well, I’ll let you know how this works out for me.

Space Monkey